It’s been over four months since I started having health issues, and I can honestly say I AM OVER IT. When it first started out, my primary doctor told me it was from stress. Back in October, I started taking birth control, which in turn caused me to be a crying baby 24/7. I would honestly cry about EVERYTHING, just when my body was adjusting to the hormones though. I noticed I started to stress more, and worry about things that had nothing to do with me, more so than I previously did. Everything seemed to be an issue. In December everyone knows I was in the ER with severe stomach pains, after seeing the doctor in the beginning of the month with the same issue, just dealt with it. I was discharged from the hospital & was perfectly fine. I then noticed changes in my diet… never having an appetite, which lead to me never eating, which then led to me losing 12 pounds in a week. I would throw up every day, and always have acid reflux. I had an endoscopy about 2 weeks ago & they noticed 3 things: my esophagus & stomach are inflamed, I have developed a tear in my stomach due to excessive vomiting, and the lining of my stomach is abnormal. It is said to be from stress… I cannot grasp the fact that I have done this to MYSELF. I really just wanted to get across that you worry about things you should not worry about, DON’T. You will make yourself completely miserable. Taking prescriptions that make you vomit even more just add to the suckiness of it all. If I knew that stressing over little things, such as people yelling at me at work for not having their scripts done, would lead me to where I am today, I would probably not cared & told them they needed to wait. I’m a pushover & I let people get the best of me. ENDING NOW.

I have a doctors appointment & Borland & Groover clinic on Monday. Hopefully my gastroenterologist will tell me that I’m not dying… which I find extremely hard to believe at this moment in time.

/done being a baby. DAMN YOU BIRTH CONTROL.